Tuesday, October 11, 2005
A dark cloud had been hovering over me for the past few days. A few shocking news that I've accepted just does not make me any better. So I've been thinking a lot. Lost a bit of sleep bcoz of it. Been thinking bout the past, the present and also the future. Change is the theme of the week. I've been thinking on how much I've changed for the past 10 years. I think I've changed for the better...I hope.What suprised me is the discovery of the fact that some people do change for the worst and some people does not change at all. But 1 thing about these people that change for the worst: they don't realize that they're changing for the worst. While the people that don't change are just too afraid too change and yes...they also don't realize that they are not accepting change. Sometimes it feels ironic that the person who's unwilling to change is the one who are brave to face anything in life and yet just be afraid of change. Change is necessary for the right reasons. But sometimes change is unnecessary because there's no need to. Some things are just best to be left alone. Bak kata pepatah..."Why fix something that is not broken?". Bila dipikirkan aku pada masa dulu dan aku pada masa sekarang memang bagai langit dgn bumi (maybe adalah sikit2 personaliti aku yg takkan berubah). Agaknye kalo member2 aku masa sekolah dlu kalo jumpe aku skang mesti dorg ckp "Rose....why now ur so nerdy?"hehehe. I tell you, masa skolah dlu tak pernah terlintas pun yg aku akan jadi cikgu. Last2 aku kena menghadap perangai students yg mirror image aku masa skolah dlu. Sometimes I feel that it's a pembalasan for the sins that I've done in school. I rarely liked my teachers...Most of the teachers hanya pandai marah je. Bila kita tak faham and bertanya, kita kena marah plak. That's why aku berjanji pada diri sendiri takkan marah students aku bila dorg tanya soalan. Coz I understand them fully. Aku dpt offer masuk matrik TESL in 1998. Masa tu dlm ati nak tukar course coz mmg tak minat langsung nak jadi cikgu. I almost did in 1999, but I rejected the offer for another course after much thinking and some deep persuasion from my parents. When did I accept the fact that I will become a teacher?16/9/2003. The date which I was posted to school.Masa tu mmg reality really bites. "Oh my god I'm a teacher". So here I am, teaching my 2nd year and 2006 will be my 3rd year of teaching....Unbelievable. So to conclude, aku nak bertanya...kira nak wat poll lah.. Adakah hidup yang anda hidup sekarang ni adalah hidup yang anda bayangkan 5 tahun dahulu? Please leave your comment by clicking the comment link below....Your cooperation much appreciated. =) |
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